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To be honest, Baruch College didn’t do much for me. Sure, I was excited about college. But it just feels the same. It hasn’t lived up to my expectations. Maybe if I lived in a dorm I would be more excited, but it just feels like I’m going to high school every day, except I’m dealing with a much larger school. I would have to say that my first semester went fine. The only problem is with math. The finals are coming up and I feel that I’m going to fail because the teacher was so confusing and he moved too fast. Other than that, I liked my schedule. It was pretty easy going. I liked the club hours where I would use my time efficiently and wisely by doing my homework or studying for a test beforehand. I also hung out with some of my friends there and sometimes, they tutored me in math when I needed help. One thing I would do differently during my first semester is to go to more SACC appointments I guess. To take advantage of it and study harder for math, but I just got so lazy. I also didn’t join any clubs because I wanted to see how stressful college would be and I wanted to adjust to it before I tried to join and clubs. I felt that clubs would take out time from my studying and homework time. But now I am okay with it, so next semester I’m going to join clubs. I haven’t changed much. Maybe the fact that I take studying way too seriously now, and I don’t know if I should be happy about this or not. Did I mature a bit? Probably not…I still act dumb with my boyfriend and friends. But I definitely am more studious now.

i hate clowns and dolls, i think they are disgusting
they scare me a lot too
clowns with ridiculous huge red noses for no reason
and big shoes…when i’m pretty sure they have small feet.
and what’s with the ugly outfits?
i mean even a hippo can dress better than that
i tried to google search on how they looked like because i forgot the image of them
and out popped a white faced clown with a huge receding hair line,
along with a red afro-like type of hair
they can’t even put makeup on properly
sometimes i want to smack the person who created the idea of clowns
when i was little, i watched scary movie 2 with the clown in it
and it was just sitting on a rocking chair, but later on the scene it shows that the clown is gone.
after that movie, i am convinced that clowns are horrifying.
and the deal with dolls?
one word: chucky.
i despise that movie
i am utterly convinced that dolls are alive
yes, even in the morning, they are watching you…
waiting to strike you at night.
i also think barbies are serial killers
i think of them as jealous women waiting to kill their next victim
i also watched this move called toy soldiers
it had action figures and dolls coming alive to fight each other…
i kind of thought it was dumb
when i was in the 3rd grade, i won a barbie doll
i was pretty happy with it, or at least tried to be
every night while i slept i was paranoid that the barbie would come into my bed and somehow kill me with a tiny knife
after a few days i couldn’t take the suspense anymore
and i ripped the barbie’s head off, placed it in a garbage can in the kitchen
then i threw the rest of what was left of the barbie in a separate trash can
you never know if barbies can walk and try to attach their head again
yeah…i hate them that much.
the rest of my toys that resembled like dolls were also thrown away
they are creepy and not entertaining at all
p.s. if you have any dolls, you’re pretty much done for

I haven’t figured out what my goals are; besides striving for excellent grades and trying to get involved with the Baruch community. I’m only an immature girl who doesn’t know what she wants yet after all. Although, I do have some idea on what to major in; perhaps accounting or possibly international business. It only just feels like yesterday I stepped out of the teenager zone and moved onto the adult zone. The nostalgia feeling of high school and old classmates and friends comes back from time to time. For me, adjusting to college seems fine at the moment, I’m not complaining. Figuring out time management, and knowing that I’m the only one who takes full responsibility of my own actions is a huge step. The idea of growing up and each day passing by just seems scary. Sometimes I look at my mother and I see her growing older each day and it makes me not watch to grow up. It makes me want to go back to the leisure times of being young; where watching cartoons and not having a care in the world was simply amazing. Although I am maturing, I’m sure to keep my immature side: the part that loves to watch cartoons, play ridiculous games with friends, or jumping in puddles when it’s rainy weather.

Going back on the subject of college, I think things are going just fine. Some of my professors are quirky, peculiar, enthusiastic, nice, and just plain boring. I used to think that in college, you would not see the same faces of your classmates in each class but this is not the case in Baruch. I’m kind of disappointed. I think that without “blocks”, it would have given us freshmen more of a chance to go and meet more people. I’m still thinking of clubs to join, perhaps taekwondo? I was always interested in learning some type of martial arts or self defense. I guess chinese movies took an influence on me. I saw some of the taekwondo club videos and it looks so intense, it intimidates me. So I’m undecided on joining…

College doesn’t seem scary. It’s just the idea of being alone in a new place that’s frightening to most. I kind of like the idea of having a lot of work and at the same time I don’t. It makes me more studious and less of a procrastinator. I think that’s a good thing, but it also takes time from my social life. My close friends go to colleges in different states and countries; it’s hard to talk to them at times. But I have a feeling things will work out well, even as this college process is a long way to go.

One of my favorite shows: Adventure Time (: