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Well it is about 9:32pm on October 18,2011. I feel better than I do on most days because no one is bothering me. Usually my grandma bothers me about my sister. She is always asking me when will my sister com home. She does this on regular basis and it makes me so annoyed. I don’t know when she is coming home and frankly I don’t care when she does or if she ever will. My mom needs to stop calling me because I am seriously about to block her. My sister needs to stop texting me to call her at whatever time so she can wake up. First she takes my alarm clock and not she wants me to be her alarm clock.. They have always annoyed me but these days it seems particularly annoying. I feel so annoyed to the point where I am avoiding my own house. I know that it is my fault I feel like this. Watching everyone around me be successful I feel like I am falling behind. My friends are all pretty much doing well in their school and their internships. They seem to be passionate about something. On the other hand my grades are slipping and I haven’t started my resume. I don’t have a passion and I don’t even know if Baruch is where I really want to be. I know I’m frustrated with myself and my frustration is carrying over the negative feelings I feel towards my family. I know I should try to see things through their perspectives. I should try to help people with the things I can but lately that isn’t the case. Thoughts and emotions are not the same. Emotions are irrational. They are stronger and they can easily overpower my thoughts. I try to control my emotions but sometimes the only way to control them is to create distance.

A) Tell us who you think YOU are?

So who am I… Well I’m the person who is treating this like homework and writing this to get it over with. My name is Lanny. I am 17 years old. I’m a freshman at Baruch. I like to sleep. I am always tired. I rather not write this blog. I hate tests and homework. I always act on impulse. I don’t think about consequences. I think everyone is entitled to his opinion so I don’t care what you think of me or what I wrote. Yep that’s about it. If you really want to know more about me its more practical to stalk my Facebook.

B) Share your top 3 concerns about your freshmen year at Baruch College and explain why.

My first concern is my grade for English. I’m down to a C already so I have to be more focus in that class. It reminds me of the time I went from top of the class to bottom of the class in three weeks.  My second concern is that I can’t seem to retain anything I read and I don’t always finish the readings. I think I am becoming senile already.  My third concern is that I’m always tired and sleeping in my classes but I think that’s the least of my worries. I’ve fallen asleep in all my classes at least once in high school. I can sleep anywhere. I’ve fallen asleep in the bathroom (my bathroom, not public ones), on the train, and even standing in gym classes.

C) So far, what do you think will make your Baruch College Experience different from your high school experience? Think beyond your first semester.

Well the first thing is that the building is less crowed and that there are elevators. In my high school there was only one up and one down stair case and there were over a thousand students. Second, the bathroom is not guarded. In my high school you had to have a pass and an id to use the bathroom. A lady would sit out there and record the name, date, and time you used the bathroom. Third, we can buy lunch outside of school. High school lunch was terrible and I have to pay so I don’t eat. Just looking at the food grosses me out. There are days when I walk into the cafeteria starving and suddenly feel full watching my friends eat. There is also more freedom.

D) How do you think your first year of college will change you? Again, think beyond classes. Think Professionally and personally.

The first year probably won’t change me much. Beyond the classes I hope to be prepared for whatever occupation I choose and to manage my time better. I hope to find something I truly love to do because I am very fickle. I’ve found many things that I love to do but I also seem to lose interest just as quickly.

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