Author Archives: maria.pafitis

I miss having time to sit down and write my emotions. I feel that the fact that I am not writing, is keeping me back, and not allowing me to properly relax. I think I need to force myself to set a “writing” time slot. I’m tired of writing for school; I’m tired of writing all these pointless essays and nothing for my own pleasure. I am not developing my mind. I am not expressing what I think.  School is taking over my life. People always told me that college is not a joke, but I never understood until now. All nighters have become routines. Reading has become my best friend. Seriously where is this winter break?

I never looked at myself in the mirror, and categorized myself as some thing. I can begin by saying I’m an eighteen year old girl who is very friendly, dances since the time I could walk, shops more than the ordinary , procrastinates way too much and most importantly has goals. I never really took the time to sit there and think about who I am and what I consider myself , but the only thing certain is that I’m just living my life to the fullest. However, my goals are my destination and I would not stop until I achieve all I have planned for the future. They say that high school shapes who you are, but I believe that in college I would get a better understanding of who I am and the ways other see me.

Now that I reached college I don’t know what to expect. Whether I would be out partying every night or will pulling all nighters just to finished the reading for one class. However, one things sure though I made the right choice by choosing Baruch because I am entering the business world, or at least hope to. Entering college there is a lot of mixed feelings and expectations. As a freshman, my top concern is getting the work done and actually keeping up with the class discussions. Coming into such a school with so many different people, I knew that making friends would be very easy, but I was concerned whether I would get along with everyone that way I did in high school. Coming from such a small private school that I was attending since pre-k I wasn’t sure if I would be able to adapt to this change of an atmosphere, and being around so many thousands of students. Another major concern is that in college it is extremely important to engage in the school activities which includes club, sororities and also taking the extra step of even interning and I don’t know if I would be able to have such a rich resume like some of my classmates do and having high grades like I did in high school

Only a month into the college experience, I realized how different it is from high school. In my high school, I did not have this freedom of choosing which hours I wanted to go to school, what classes I wanted to take and even the clothes I would wear to school. In college, your actions are what you make them. If you want to take notes its all up to you, more like in high school if you decided to not write you would receive a 0. This transformation makes you more individualistic and makes you more knowledgeable to ideas that you are interested in.

My first year in college will change me because I will get an idea of what I like and have a close group of friends that have the same interests in mean. However, college will prepare me for the real life and show me that in order to succeed one must work. Everyone saids that college years are the best years, so I just have to wait and see. One things for sure though, after college I would be a lot more smarter.