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Driving me crazy. Just trying to give you whatever’s left of me. But is it enough? You say you’re not looking for perfection, I think I am. But then again, perfect girls aren’t real. So what am I living for? I guess just those summer nights that I can’t remember with the people I won’t forget. I remember all the nights with you, but is it you I need to forget? I’ve made some mistakes that I don’t ever make excuses for. But why regret it? Instead, I learn from it. Don’t go through life, grow through life. But how should I live it? The motto is: “Live without pretending, Love without depending, Listen without defending, Speak without offending.” And I do. I really do. I try so hard. But it’s never been good enough to anyone, until now. The days finally get brighter. And better late then never. Am I doing something different? No, I’m still doing me, just like I always have. Whoever wants to hate can hate all they want, but my love is still with them. Why think or wish wrong about someone else? Instead, just hope for your own good and success. No matter what, I’m just gonna keep chasing my dreams, my goals, my ambitions.  Because at some point, all the hard work is going to pay off. Just gotta keep doing the right thing and everything you want will come in time. So I’ve never thought about turning back, I’m in it till it’s over. This life may be a rollercoaster, but you can still find me with a smile on my face. I’m just trying to celebrate each day, each moment and just hope that I’m alive for the next.

Going into college, I was a carefree young adult who didn’t have much experience of the real world and was just going wherever life would take me.  However, throughout my first two months in college, I have learned to be a lot more goal oriented and have truly recognized the value of hard work and dedication. I have my goals set in life and I am trying to work towards them. Baruch has been a major part of this recent maturation. One thing j have realized is the concept of survival of the fittest, as there are very few that make it big.  Being only two months into college, one of the biggest concerns I have had is time management, where I have to manage  classes, homework, work, family life, social life, sleep and some relaxing time for yourself all in 168 hours per week. And on top of that, commuting is probably the biggest problem of all. Three hours of being stuck in public transportation a day, it only makes things worse. However, luckily for me, I feel I am doing a decent job right now with that by using that commuting time wisely. Also, I am trying to learn as many things as i  can because I am also learning that knowledge never goes wasted. Otherwise, I feel I have had a rewarding college experience thus far and  hope it only gets even better!

Dear professor,

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