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So here I am, back again to talk about how this year has been going and how life has been going so far Baruch is getting better day by day because of me meeting new people and seeing the amazing atmosphere around school. In the beginning of this year I was nervous because this was a new beginning and everything was new and bigger and something I wasn’t used too. Now almost three months later I;ve grown up a lot and I’ve learned a lot about people. I know this is just my freshman year and I still have much more to see but I believe that these first three months have been very beneficial to. Life is also pretty good right now with all the things around me falling into place. I work about 30 hours a week and the rest of the time, I’m in school or studying. For these upcoming months I except a lot more changes in my life. I expect to make even more friends because I want to go to more club parties and enjoy the Baruch experience more. Soon, we get to register for classes which I am excited about because unlike last semester, this semester I actually have the chance to pick my own classes. In all honesty I can’t wait for this break so I can just relax because I plan on taking a vacation from work as well. This year so far has been filled with ups and downs, but I have gotten stronger because of it. My past fears of failing have diminished greatly and I am not worried about things like that at all. I am not worried of failure because I know that I can succeed and I know that college is the right place for me. I think that I will do a liberal arts major because my academic advisor said that it would be the better choice because I want to be a lawyer. What’s amazing is that only three months ago I was confused as to what I wanted to major in but now I have a foundation that I want to build on. Life has a lot more to bring to me and I can’t wait for the net three and a half years at this school. This class has been very helpful to me in understanding morals and ethics and some of the lessons I learned in this class I will keep for years to come. This is just the beginning; I can’t wait for everything else that’s in store.

Monologue: Usman Bhatti
Hi, I guess I’m supposed to like open up about myself right now; but its hard to open up when everyone in my life has told me to “keep it to myself”. I guess I can start by saying what I am on the interior. I’m self-conscious about how I look, and I hate when people stare at me on the bus, because I feel like something’s wrong with me that I’m not aware of. That’s why I think coming to Baruch was such a big step. All these faces staring at you, judging you before they even get to know you. Even now, standing up here, I wanna barf because who knows what you guys think of me. Life has given me many challenges, but I don’t complain about it; I just take it in stride. Now I can’t talk about me without talking about my girlfriend. She’s my best friend and the one person who I can depend on. I know you’re supposed to love yourself before you can love others but, she helped me to love myself. Everyday I wake up I say a little prayer, because I’m thankful to be alive. The reason? I almost killed myself twice, once an accidental overdose and once intentional. Now don’t ask why I did that, it was just a very dark moment in my life, where people around me were dying, my mom had cancer and I had nobody to talk to. It was scary, because you think you know what pitch black is until you get knocked out by 10 pain killers. That’s scary. Three years later though, I’m definitely a changed man, a man with a semi full time job and someone who’s semi full time in school. Basically, I have a full time life, that moves to fast to sit and do pot, or drink or do any type of drugs. Exterior wise I dress in dark colors and I don’t try to get to much attention. That’s a big reason why I wear the hats, because a lot of the times I don’t want to be seen or judged. I’m a poet at heart, not a rapper or a singer but a poet. I love making words flow from line to line and its that which helps me get through the dark times. You can probably tell that my thoughts are all over the place because I don’t really know what to focus on. Life’s changing around me, I just hope I’m ready for everything. I hope everything goes how I want it too. I hope I become a lawyer. I hope when I tell my parents about who I love they accept me. I hope my family learns to love me. I hope God forgives me for the times that I have sinned. I hope you guys understand that I don’t like opening up but I just did. Other then that I don’t know what to say about myself. Who am i? I’m Usman, and I’m ready for whatever life has to offer, because I’ve been through the bad, now I’m waiting for all the good.

I believe that community service is a great way to give back to the people in our community who need help more then us. It’s the best way to help because it is something that has to do with the heart and doesn’t have anything to do with the money or a paycheck. I have done community service at a food bank where I helped collect cans of food and other non-perishables that people who were less fortunate could use to fill their stomachs on those long and cold winter nights. I have also done political community service for Anthony Weiner; this past year when he was running for office. Even though the outcome was him winning, followed by a huge public scandal the experience was a great one. I got to mail out campaign flyers, and make calls to get votes, and I even got to meet Anthony Weiner when he came to his head office. I learned how hard it is to get people to listen with the phone calls because many people hung up or didn’t care enough to listen; but I tried and stayed persistent with the phone calls and helped him get some votes that he didn’t have. I hope that where ever we go for community service, it is fun and beneficial for the community.

Who am I? I don’t know; sometimes it’s hard to say and to be honest I hate when I’m asked that. I’m Usman and I’m 18 years old. That’s the only two things I’m sure about. There’s two things I love more then anything; and that is my family and my girlfriend. I think that I’m caring towards the people I love and I try to look out for them as much as possible. I feel as if I’m finding my own in this world. I have a job that pays for my bills, and I’m going to school to become successful later on in life. One of my big concerns about freshman year at Baruch is the fast paced lifestyle of being in college. The school is ten times bigger then my high school and its a little intimidating. I also am concerned about getting good grades and getting ahead without falling behind too much. Finally, I want to fit in and integrate into the Baruch community. I know its not like high school where those things actually matter but I still don’t want to be an outcast and actually do want to make friends. My Baruch experience will be different from my experience in high school in many ways, but one that will be the most different is the size and how it affects my behavior. My high school Townsend Harris had 1200 students, this school has over twelve thousand so that alone is a little hard to adjust too. Since there are so many people the pace is faster then my high school and its a little hard to keep up with at time but I am definitely adjusting nicely. My first year in college may change others but I doubt it will change me a lot. I know that I’m hardworking and I’ll stay that way and I also am determined so that will definitely not change. The teacher makes us feel weird my saying we aren’t real students but my only mistake was that I applied a month late to CUNY’s. I feel I belong in college so I don’t really think college will change me too much at all. I’m very mature and know how to talk and how to behave and also am very independent already with my own job and own way of paying my bills. I can’t wait to see what Baruch has to offer then maybe in 3 or 4 years when you ask who I am, I’ll actually have a better answer.