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The first semester is going to end in a month, I have gained much more than what I initially expected through the past thirteen weeks, not only academic knowledge but also new values to society.

Gain vs. Lost: first I received my class schedule, I was complaining that they assigned the exact same classmates to each of my courses. This was obviously going to limit our social network, and that would be boring to me. Last week everybody in my class made their new schedule for next semester, few of us have chances to meet again. Actually, we lost larger social networks, but gained deeper friendships.

Naïve vs. Mature: I was told that I was naïve, I was always acting like a kid when I already turned to eighteen. I do not know what makes me such a personality, honestly I hate being a kid. At the beginning of the semester, I wrote down “making people around me happy is one of my goals”. My statement was not false, but I used a wrong method to get it done. I made jokes to bring fun to others, like a clown in time square, surrounding by groups of kids. Now I discover that anytime we aim to accomplish something, there are usually multiple ways for options, to choose a naïve or mature way, it is up to ourselves. Most of time they both direct us to the destinations, but an unsuitable choice is making a bad experience.

Finally, never take a risk without evaluation to its consequence. Most of us are going to dedicate in business occupations, most of us are going to be entrepreneurs. Take a deliberation before getting started .

After I read the monologue posted by one of my classmates, Kun Chen, I was inspired something about the word “fate”.

First of all I must apologize to him because I usually made jokes on him for no reason. He seemed to never get mad about my behaviors. He was unique, intelligent, knowledgeable, I felt embarrassed for my disrespect to him. Sorry, my friend, actually I’ve discovered that I’ve learned lots of things from you, things that initially not belong to me.

Go back to my topic, I agree with a sentence written in Kun’s monologue, it said that “The world is a stage and every human is an actor or actress”. Playing a role in our lives seems unchangeable, it is like our fates, we have to do certain things, just for survival, make ourselves further away from death.

Why were we born? Why dose human reproduce? People think it is natural, it was the way of living since there was human being. Furthermore, why are we educated? Why do we find a job after graduation? What is it for? I don’t have to give those answer, everyone in the world should have known them already. We are all different people, but in some ways we are so similar, we were doing the same things since we were born, eventually we met each other here, we’ve became classmates, even friends. I believe that is my fate, my fate leads me to become what I am.

I don’t know whether my fate makes me a good person or not, I don’t believe god before, but now I’ve found one, which is my fate. My fate led me to write this monologue, to love someone, and to do the things coming up in the future.

 Before I logged in my account, I was wondering whether I would be the last person of the entire seminar class to post this blog. Unfortunately, the thing I hate has really happened on me. I am not ashamed about being the last one, I am just fail to reach one of my goals, the goals that I set up for myself before I attended college. I was so confident to get all the goals done, now it seems like I was dreaming at the time I made those goals, finally I found out I am not awake yet at this moment. I am writing this blog right now, for nothing but completing the assignment, the original intention has gone already, and the following things I’m going to write have been meaningless for me.

The first concern during my college period should be time management. I was so naïve to think that there will be a change on me, I would be no longer a lazy student, the darkness in high school has gone, the assignment would not be done at the last minute by due day anymore. Eventually I’ve found out I couldn’t get rid of these weakness so far. I’ve been attending college for one month, I felt absolutely disappointed about myself, but there is still a hope, which I am hoping to reach this goal before I graduate fromBaruchCollege. It might take couple months or couple years, I don’t know, I will try my best effort to get this done!

My second concern is to have a good relationship with other students in Baruch. It’s usually more difficult for us, the Chinese immigrants, to build up a wide social network at college because of the language problem. So far I am still in trouble with this insistence, I believed I could make friends who do not speak Chinese, and finally it has became one of my beliefs……I am just able to communicate with those Chinese guys in my class, I am even uncomfortable to speak English, I have failed again. But the same conclusion as my first concern, I am doing my best to reach the goal. Even though this insistence is tough, it may take me ten years to overcome it, or maybe I couldn’t speak fluent English forever, I will never stop my steps forward.

The third concern is having a full attendance for every course, so far I’ve done a good job at this so I don’t want to spend time to talk about it. Not because I am lazy, the time now is 22:45 P.M, it’s about one hour to the deadline. After this I must study for my philosophy exam, I am rushing on everything and all the works can not be done unless I study overnight.

Who do I think I am? …… Who do you think I am?  ：）